Am I religious or an atheist?

Of late I am wondering whether I am an atheist. Some how I feel very uncomfortable at most of the temples, where majority of the people feel blessed. Very few religious places still appeal to me. Ramakrishna Ashram is one among them. But very sadly, I can count number of such places. As I recollect my faint memory down the line, I was never very religious. But I still recite few shlokas everyday, and would love to hear the chanting of mantras. Whenever I hear the chanting of mantras, I just get involved in that.

One of the main reasons why I feel very uncomfortable at most of the temples is the very atmosphere in and around the temples. Everything seems to be so commercialized, so unnatural and so mechanical that when I go around the temple, I feel I am doing a grocery shopping at a supermarket!. Recently I had been to Banashankari Temple in Badami, and I should tell you, it was such an unpleasant experience. As soon as we were nearing the temple, the pooja material vendors were upon us to buy from them. The offer was, you buy from them and they will look after your footwares free of cost till you come out of the temple!. This whole thing reminded me of the Alankar plaza (a shopping complex in Majestic, Bengaluru). They were literally man handling the people who have come to visit the temple. I dint buy any of them, for me I was just accompanying my friends. As soon as I entered the temple, I was welcomed by very unclean, slippary entrance to the temple. After that everything was just a mechanical motion to me. Interestingly it was only me who was feeling out of place, everyone else seemed to be at ease there.

This is just one example. I feel most of the sacred places are more or less similar. Gokarna for instance has turned into a business hotspot for the priests and people who arrange darshana's and poojas!. I might stop visiting all these famous religious places if I face couple of similar experiences. I am not questioning the very existance of these businesses, rather I would prefer some sort of order in them.

I should find more places like Ramakrishna Ashram, where the serene and calm atmosphere soothes ones soul.